it's been a long day / feminist blog test run

society is making me disgusted to be an urban woman.

since reaching puberty and developing breasts at an early age, i have constantly been told to cover up. to wear training bras, cover my stomach, etc. and what was this consistent haggling actually for? to prevent my male counterparts from becoming distracted. nevermind that they were making sexual jokes about all the blossoming girls during breaks from class. "yeah man, i'd totally put my dick in her mouth." because after all, it is the girl's responsibility to to everything that she can to prevent boys from getting sexual aroused or even distracted during class, no matter how young.

so began the never-ending cycle of media and moral confusion.

when i became a teenager, everything changed because suddenly men wanted to fuck me. my skirts were too short, i was wearing too much makeup. applying makeup to my face was obviously a clear sign that i wanted to screw. and if i didn't, it was my obligation to fix it, whatever the solution may be.
then again, the media aims its advertisements on teenagers. you're not pretty unless you wear lip gloss and mascara. wash your greasy, flat hair with our coconut shampoo; the boys love it. I DON'T CARE IF THEY LOVE IT. why should i relate my body care products to attracting the opposite sex? corporations' advertising methods are truly misguided.
let's say i wanted to go au naturale. i walk into a bar and flirt a little with a man that i thought was attractive. he thinks i'm prude and boring because my hair isn't long and sexy and my eyelashes don't bat when i blink. so i come back the next day, hefty on cosmetics and tight clothes. a man approaches me, acting smooth and offering to buy me a drink. i kindly decline, saying that i'm waiting for someone. you know what he calls me? a slut. because apparently, what i'm wearing, i'm wearing it just for men. it's not for myself ever. i'm asking for it. i'm looking for sex from anyone. can't you tell by my tight clothes? but i'm just a product of the media. mindless consumer.

since when are natural bodies not preferred?